High Road

I feel like something’s about to change
I feel like I’ll never be the same
Like I’ll take off and I’ll fly away
Before I find my wings

Well, that’s my introduction, anyway. Every now and then I just get that feeling.... like, get ready to hold on tight cause it’s gonna be a bumpy (in a thrilling way) ride.

Ever since I graduated from high school, I’ve felt like things have been just slightly mediocre. My high school years were amazing. I was constantly being stretched and always doing things out of my comfort zone. I traveled all over the world, I was always learning something spiritually new, and I was always involved in some sort of leadership. It seemed that I always had inspiration, too. And then I graduated.

I was tired. I hated school (the homework part) but was trying to gear up for college. After I found out I couldn’t afford a good university, I began to wonder if college was for me (wouldn’t that be wonderful?) I decided to take a year off. A year to pursue music lessons, my first job, finding scholarships for next year, and composing my own songs. Here I am, half way through, I’ve finished a wopping total of two songs, I’ve slacked off of practicing, and I have gotten no scholarship money whatsoever. A little discouraging. (I do love my job though)

And yet, every now and then, I still get that feeling.

When I was about 16 years old, I was on a walk with my mom after dark (not to worry, I live in a safe neighborhood). I was trying to figure out where my life was going, and I just got this impressionable feeling that God was going to use me in a big way. I had no idea what that meant, but it was just something to hold onto. It was too big of a feeling to ignore.

I haven’t given up on that... I didn’t soar in high school, just to crash and burn in college. So this song, once it’s finished is about my journey. I feel like it’s one of the pillars of a whole album of pondering what God’s will is for my life (Thinking of calling it “Hallways”)... somehow I think people will be able to relate. Thankfully life is a journey, not a destination, or else this project would never be finished.

God is sovereign... He doesn’t guide us places just to get us excited and then leave us. He tests us, but he never forsakes us. May we never lose faith.